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"It was late - a bit past 2am. I couldn't sleep. There was too much on my mind: mostly worries and anxieties. I tried to find comfortable positions to sleep in so my body would just relax. My mind continued to shout and bug me, causing my body to become restless. I live alone. There was no one to talk to. My phone was right next to me. All my friends and family were asleep. I didn't want to call them on a week night and have them think I was doing a drunk dial call. Plus, would they understand my worries anyway. It's all personal, almost private. I felt like I can't really talk to anyone that wont judge me. I had to speak. I had to talk to someone. Something.
My teddy was in the corner. She looked real enough. I turned on the light and sat up, placing her on my lap. I just stared at her; those button eyes looking up at me. I felt silly doing this. I just sat there, my mouth shut and my mind racing. I started talking, my words dripping out of me like a tipped-over glass of water. I talked to my teddy, telling her what was on my mind, what I'm scared of, and why I couldn't sleep... I expected no answer from my long train of babble. I know I wouldn't get any advice from her - advice I need to calm my nerves. But the more I talk, the less anxious I felt. I listened to my own words and my brain analyzed my problems in a different way.
Some weight is taken off my shoulders. Not all though, but at least I did get some sleep... "
artwork © 2012 Alex Cockburn
My teddy was in the corner. She looked real enough. I turned on the light and sat up, placing her on my lap. I just stared at her; those button eyes looking up at me. I felt silly doing this. I just sat there, my mouth shut and my mind racing. I started talking, my words dripping out of me like a tipped-over glass of water. I talked to my teddy, telling her what was on my mind, what I'm scared of, and why I couldn't sleep... I expected no answer from my long train of babble. I know I wouldn't get any advice from her - advice I need to calm my nerves. But the more I talk, the less anxious I felt. I listened to my own words and my brain analyzed my problems in a different way.
Some weight is taken off my shoulders. Not all though, but at least I did get some sleep... "
artwork © 2012 Alex Cockburn
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This is me every night, but instead of a teddy, I talk to all of the different 'me's in my head. And it's not worry, it's emptiness that I have an insatiable urge to fill but can't.