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Insomnia... by o-kemono Insomnia... by o-kemono
I can't sleep...I can't dream. When I do dream, its very short and random. When I do sleep, its very short and random. For weeks I have gone through 3 hours to no sleep. My body feels relaxed, but my brian continues to be active. Its like someone left the lights on inside and no one's home. I toss and turn to find the most comfortable position to sleep in. Once I find it, I relax, but my brain doesnt; the only thing I can't control...

Tylenol, Nyquil, chamomile tea...They don't do anything to help me. Two cups of hot chamomile tea, topped of with two Tylenol PM pills. The tea helps relax my body. The pills help my brain fall asleep. The result, only 2 hours of sleep, followed by a night of restlessness. Could go outside and run around, but its very cold out and I don't want to be sick on top of being very tired. Could do math in my head, but I will stress myself out for not finding the right answer.

Every morning, my eyes hurt and my body is still weak. My brain is still active and acts like I got a full night's sleep when only I slept for one hour. It feels like it can take on the world with little to no sleep at all. Am I slowly becoming something that requires no sleep and can still survive, or do I have a problem thats causing my insomnia and I don't know what it is? Could be many reasons: after effect of being stressed, depression, maybe even something medical in my brain. I don' know. There are no answers.

Went to the doctors to try to find something that will help. She suggests more pills, the addictive kind. I hate meds. I hate pills. I don't want to take those dangerous drugs. If they do get me to sleep, then I will have another problem: addiction.

Its not fair. I dont need this on top of everything else in my life. I want to be healthy. I want to sleep. I don't want to be awake for 24 hours after a depressing and/or busy day. Its like torture. My brain is torturing my body. It wants me to suffer...and I can't do anything about it. All I can do is remain still, my eyes closed, and just "meditate" the hours away until the sun comes up...and I have to get myself ready for the next 8 hour day at work...

insomnia © 2010 Alex Cockburn
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TheSupremeOverlord Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2012
I had one or two cases of insomnia. I couldn't sleep, and I was always terrified because I thought that from that moment on I would never be able to sleep again...
FerrariBoy9100 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2011  Student Photographer
I'm an insomniac myself. I can't take meds because of my heart.
TheVioletFox Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
Finally someone puts into words what an insomniac like me feels. It'a always so hard for people with normal sleeping habits to understand sometimes...
MiniMaloMyotismon10 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
i know how it feel to have your body relaxed but your mind is going a mile a min. i have servere insomia and i find it hard to sleep most days if i do sleep it is only like a quick catnap><
jcarrasquillo30 Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Besides all the things I have to say about the artwork and the "story" behind it, which I will comment about later, I have to say that if you can't sleep it's because you have a problem or various problems in your head or around you. If that is not it, look inside the place you are living, there's something that shouldn't be there and needs to be taken out. If the problem is not inside your head nor around you: pray so that God tells you what the problem is. (This is not a religious comment.)
Aruman Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2010
I have trouble sleeping too, but you sound pretty severe. Hope you find an aid to your insomnia soon.
supershadow333 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2010
Great work again:)

As for the sleep problem...what i do is stay in bed and just think, daydream, or whatever. Usually keeping my eyes closed. if it's obvious you're going to be awake all night, then try to do something fun! play a game, read a book.

That's the advice i can give you, if you're staying away from meds :shrug:
Kubikajiri Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
herbsbymerlin is a natural herbal mixture brewed like tea is non addictive and relaxing I had the same problem and this worked quite well it is a bit hard to find though since it is an herbal remedy you can find it in paganistic type shops or go online at in case you are wondering its ingrediants are peppermint, catnip, skullcap, chamomille, wild lettuce, valerian, hops, and passion flower i always keep some handy if you read this try it it does work and it is pleasant tasting also
Silkeyn Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2010
Lol, I've been an insomniac my whole life.
desballs Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2010
i don't have insomnia i just choose not to sleep most nights.
MySurvivingBones Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2010
Although I can't personally say that I've had insomnia, I've had more than a few friends who have.

What I can suggest is not to fight it. Go to sleep when you want to (even if it's in the middle of the day) and make up your own sleeping patterns that seem to fit. If you only sleep for two hours at a time, then don't try to sleep for six. I do realize, however, that such a luxury as being able to sleep whenever you want to is hard to come by in society today.

While working out (and tea!) has worked for my incomparable situations, might I suggest some fun and lighthearted crossword puzzles and brain teasers? The point for those would be to give your brain something to work on that's not stressful, but is challenging enough to make it work hard. Sounds logical enough to work, hopefully.

I'd use the pills as a last resort, myself. However, if it's unbearable, you shouldn't suffer needlessly.

As for the picture, wonderful as always. I especially like the many detailed cross-hatches and the subtle nuances of frustration on his face.
Storm-Fur Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2010
Feel bad for you,the pic fits perfectly.
Nette-Yoon Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
i'm diagnosed with insomnia they wanted me to take the pills but i have a very addictive personality. so i told my doc to help me find something else i can do. i did the work out thing it helped a lil bit but i was so sore in the morning. i stsrted to take reallyhot baths with insents that are s';pose to cause drowsyness. it started to work very well then i got back into a sleeping pattern.
DarkestKitty Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2010
When I can't sleep I just think to myself that my bed is lovely in its softness and warmth, that it feels good just to be silent for a while, that in the morning I don't want to wake up, that I'll be cold while waiting for the buss and that it's better to be awake in this moment than in the morning. Even the sleepless nights are sweet. :heart:
(The following mornings are a completelt different matter. :XD:)
Emeralddragon2 Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2010
*Pfff*! You people and your inability to change personalities! At least try to avoid the decision that something is worth hating.

I decided to change myself to a more open personality, but it turns out that me being open is rude, but it certainly makes others more open with thier personality!
Mattaki-chan Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010  Student Filmographer
Music always helps me sleep.

Great pic <3
desballs Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010
Love how the dream catcher brings irony to the scene, makes me miss having the many catchers that i had when i was a kid. i might try to remember how to make them again, another great work of art and literature.
Igotnutinbtr2do Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010
Whatever you do stay away from those damn pills, they do more damage than they can ever fix. I know first and second hand, extending so far as to out of even insomnia and general sleep issues, pills are double edged blades. Unfortunately I can't offer any real help though,I did intense work outs for a long time and than laid in bed exhausted and my brain would never stop going at it anyways.
Seelenlicht Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Very good picture and very good words...
It just fits together...

I have that problem for some years now... nothing helped...
I hate pills, but now I`m taking pills, they do help - but I only take the ones that you don`t get addicted to easily.
If I forget them nothin happens, expect I can`t sleep.
And if I sleep and dream, the brain is still working during that time...
I hate it and I hope that someday that problem will vanish...
Razor13 Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
Another beautiful image to match perfectly with words. I'd follow the doctor's advice, but see if there's a different variation of the drug, one not so addictive. Tell the doc about the fear of addiction. Usually unless you take the drug wrong the addictiveness isn't as bad. Any drug can be addictive, even over the counter ones. If you go too long without sleep your body and brain start to seem more and more disconnected and after enough time, the body starts to shut down. I'm not trying to raise fear, just giving some input.
w00t-r0x Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010
Aaaah yeah. I've been there. Never found out what caused it either. I just started getting back into a sleeping cycle. Nothing feels right with yourself for a while and then one day it just kind of clicks back into place. Wish I could be more help. Great pic to go along with the message as always though.
Quavera-Tava Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010
The only solution I can think of is make your brain so tired by the end of the day it HAS to sleep, or you fall over dead from exhaustion, either one works right? ^^
eiszfuchs Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
:+fav: And I wish you the best to make you sleep better again. :meow:
dbz00832002 Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010
So very true *Raises Hand* Happens here alot... good pic for it too
MephilestehDarkness Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010
I don't know what to say. Sorry. :(
SHARK-008 Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
"my BRIAN" oupsie! ;)

I hate pills, medics and stuff like that myself. ^^;
FireXIce Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
I used to have trouble sleeping in the past. My solution was to work out until I was ready to fall down and sleeping was easy after that.

On another thought, I can't seem to figure out the process you go about drawing these. They're incredibly detailed and must take a very vivid imagination to express such imagery.
DeadPegasus Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010
Boo-yah! Just what I was going to suggest. At work, I make sure I bust ass, so when I get home, I pass out on my bed.
WaffleBerry Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2010
it sounds weird but try brewing some FRESH catnip into a tea...

it has long been used as an aid for restlessness and insomnia...
CausticFlower Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Really?  How much fresh Catnip do you have to put in hot tea?
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