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Insomnia... by o-kemono Insomnia... by o-kemono
I can't sleep...I can't dream. When I do dream, its very short and random. When I do sleep, its very short and random. For weeks I have gone through 3 hours to no sleep. My body feels relaxed, but my brian continues to be active. Its like someone left the lights on inside and no one's home. I toss and turn to find the most comfortable position to sleep in. Once I find it, I relax, but my brain doesnt; the only thing I can't control...

Tylenol, Nyquil, chamomile tea...They don't do anything to help me. Two cups of hot chamomile tea, topped of with two Tylenol PM pills. The tea helps relax my body. The pills help my brain fall asleep. The result, only 2 hours of sleep, followed by a night of restlessness. Could go outside and run around, but its very cold out and I don't want to be sick on top of being very tired. Could do math in my head, but I will stress myself out for not finding the right answer.

Every morning, my eyes hurt and my body is still weak. My brain is still active and acts like I got a full night's sleep when only I slept for one hour. It feels like it can take on the world with little to no sleep at all. Am I slowly becoming something that requires no sleep and can still survive, or do I have a problem thats causing my insomnia and I don't know what it is? Could be many reasons: after effect of being stressed, depression, maybe even something medical in my brain. I don' know. There are no answers.

Went to the doctors to try to find something that will help. She suggests more pills, the addictive kind. I hate meds. I hate pills. I don't want to take those dangerous drugs. If they do get me to sleep, then I will have another problem: addiction.

Its not fair. I dont need this on top of everything else in my life. I want to be healthy. I want to sleep. I don't want to be awake for 24 hours after a depressing and/or busy day. Its like torture. My brain is torturing my body. It wants me to suffer...and I can't do anything about it. All I can do is remain still, my eyes closed, and just "meditate" the hours away until the sun comes up...and I have to get myself ready for the next 8 hour day at work...

insomnia © 2010 Alex Cockburn
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TheSupremeOverlord Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2012
I had one or two cases of insomnia. I couldn't sleep, and I was always terrified because I thought that from that moment on I would never be able to sleep again...
FerrariBoy9100 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2011  Student Photographer
I'm an insomniac myself. I can't take meds because of my heart.
TheVioletFox Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
Finally someone puts into words what an insomniac like me feels. It'a always so hard for people with normal sleeping habits to understand sometimes...
MiniMaloMyotismon10 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
i know how it feel to have your body relaxed but your mind is going a mile a min. i have servere insomia and i find it hard to sleep most days if i do sleep it is only like a quick catnap><
jcarrasquillo30 Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Besides all the things I have to say about the artwork and the "story" behind it, which I will comment about later, I have to say that if you can't sleep it's because you have a problem or various problems in your head or around you. If that is not it, look inside the place you are living, there's something that shouldn't be there and needs to be taken out. If the problem is not inside your head nor around you: pray so that God tells you what the problem is. (This is not a religious comment.)
Aruman Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2010
I have trouble sleeping too, but you sound pretty severe. Hope you find an aid to your insomnia soon.
supershadow333 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2010
Great work again:)

As for the sleep problem...what i do is stay in bed and just think, daydream, or whatever. Usually keeping my eyes closed. if it's obvious you're going to be awake all night, then try to do something fun! play a game, read a book.

That's the advice i can give you, if you're staying away from meds :shrug:
Kubikajiri Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
herbsbymerlin is a natural herbal mixture brewed like tea is non addictive and relaxing I had the same problem and this worked quite well it is a bit hard to find though since it is an herbal remedy you can find it in paganistic type shops or go online at in case you are wondering its ingrediants are peppermint, catnip, skullcap, chamomille, wild lettuce, valerian, hops, and passion flower i always keep some handy if you read this try it it does work and it is pleasant tasting also
Silkeyn Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2010
Lol, I've been an insomniac my whole life.
desballs Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2010
i don't have insomnia i just choose not to sleep most nights.
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