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Concealing The Truth by o-kemono Concealing The Truth by o-kemono
"... It's time to go to my parents house - my family who thinks they know all about me, their son. They don't. I don't tell them everything. I wish I could, but doing so would cause drama and so many issues that I can't possibly handle in my life right now. They don't know of my transformation: Male to Female transsexual. I have been taking pills for a long time and I now have grown well developed breasts. I can't put bras on when I see them. They would notice the strap lines as well as the roundness of my chest. I would wear a thick sweater, but its no where near winter yet and they would still show. I don't regret my new growth or the years I spent taking the pills to transform into what I want to be, so the only option I have is to bind my chest as tightly as I can with medical bandages, sometimes with a combination of duct tape I have to buy a bulk of rolls because they are one use only. It's like wearing a corset that makes your chest as flat as possible. On top of wearing this stupid bandage, I have to wear boy clothes, down to the underwear. This makes me even more uncomfortable.

Its hard to breathe with this bandage on and I can't flex my torso as much as I want to. In the end, I get burns and bruises from the tightness of the bandage. Sometimes my damage my ribs. I sometimes lock myself in the bathroom when seeing my parents and remove the construction from my chest. I only manage to get a good few breathes of air before I have to put it on again and walk out - continuing to act like a male instead of the female I want to be.

There will be a time when I can no longer hide it, but since my parents are so ego driven and thick skulled, I can't tell them anything. For now, I will be the "son" they love instead of the "daughter" I wish to be... "



Concealing The Truth 2011 Alex Cockburn
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QuiGonJin Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012
Wow this speaks mounds of truth and words. By the way nice work. I love the colors and your story to go along. It's touching.... And a bit sad... But when you aren't in the normal of society it's kind of hard to tell people about you not being so called "normal"... Normal is over rated and doesn't exist.
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TransMiriam Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2012
Her hair is so pretty!
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Dweapon Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2012
well to say onto that, its sometimes best to conceal the truth then it is to let it out, letting it all burst out can cause an uproar, even though seeing this case myself many times over gender bending isnt for the faint hearted, just hoped you know what your doing, although at most cases like a vanishing act its best to disappear and appear again in the world if you just where a new person
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TheSupremeOverlord Featured By Owner Feb 29, 2012
She looks so depressed...not that it's surprising. I knew some transsexual people whoose main obstacle were parents. Ego driven parents that even banished their offspring from the homes. How many have committed suicide because of this?
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FeatherSpiral Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I have an odd sexuality with closed-minded parents myself, but it's not nearly as hard to hide as this - I'm just attracted to those of my own gender, something my mother considers perverted.
Sexual oddballs unite. :dummy:
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ReminiscenceSaga Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2011
I have a very similar problem to this. I want to be a female, but I know my parents would never accept it. I probably would just go ahead and have the change without telling them and either try to hide it or just let them find out and tell them to deal with it. Only, I don't know how or where I could get the change. And with my age, I doubt I could do it by myself anyway.
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ViroVeteruscy Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2011   General Artist
*reads* ...Very well done, I like the story and kinda wish there was a comic to go with this. Great job :3
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grumpypuppy Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Its scary to tell the family. but Love can be powerful and can out way what they think. its hard to lose family but even harder to hide from them.
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nocturnmusique Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2011
I've read that over time binding can deform the breasts.
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aphasia-Runeic Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2011  Hobbyist Artist
Oooohhh... rough one.
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MorbiusMonster Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
I have heard, apparantly, that rubbing anti-chafing gel or stuff used to relieve muscle pain makes them go limp and soft, so it doesn't hurt as much to bandage them.

That or you could squeeze them less tightly and say you've had a few macdonalds too many and the big macs caused them to begin showing.

That is, if you haven't told them of what really is going on. Stuff like this interests me, it puts my mind at ease knowing about transgender and alternative lifestyles when you're stuck in a small-minded community such as mine.
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drawitbig Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel so sorry for her!
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TheSnuggleMeEmo Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2011
I love this. I've only admitted this to one other person, but deep down, I have this feeling that I'm actually a female trapped in a male's body, I could only imagine the issues it would cause if I said something, so I can semi-relate to this.

Great work, and great picture!
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YNot1989 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Solution: "Mom, Dad, this is who I am, if you have a problem with it, you can go fuck yourselves."
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MorbiusMonster Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2011
Sounds like it hurts...
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donkeylongears Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2011
:')
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TomGSilver Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you for writing this...
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Auxilon Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2011
Boy that sucks. Though there's no recourse for what [s]he did, the longer [s]he hides it, the more pain and anxiety [s]he is going to experience, because long-term deception takes a LOT of work, and will wear h[er]im out. Working up the courage to face the implications of decisions like this is a hell of a lot easier said than done, but eventually they will find out and it's better to get it over with and tell them than to be caught in h[er]is own lie.
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PudgeyRedFox Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
very nice work on this :3 I gives it two paws up :3
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Mattaki-chan Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2011  Student Filmographer
Beautiful display of certain frustrations in life.
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arxius2 Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
It's another mind twisting piece you've done... Alex. But it's one of those that makes you see the other perspective....
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Shadowghost368 Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
This picture really touches me, since that's the position that I'm probably going to find myself in soon.
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Quavera-Tava Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
I'm all for girls dressing up as guys, wanting to look like a guy sometimes, but as long as they turn back into a girl and feel comfortable with themselves by the end of the day. Eeehhh, Guys turning into girls and girls turning into guys is a bit... Well have fun with that!
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AydenHisakaru Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I feel sad, I wish he/she could tell their parents about what he wants its not fair to force yourself to conform to what others want you to be, I agree with being free to choose who you are and what you want to be
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Lucern7 Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Student General Artist
It would have been easier just to wait until after one moves away from their parents, Teenage years suck, but afterwards it gets better, If parents are really that rude, leave, it's as simple as that. After you leave home you really never need to see them again. Part of all inner torture is done by the victim itself.
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FeelinFoxy Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Student General Artist
wow :o

thats sad that she has to hide it :P
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Silvador Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
I just can't fathom what would drive someone to willingly put themselves through such torture. All that effort to change his body only to practically destroy it by binding it up is just ridiculously stupid, as far as I am concerned. No one should ever have to do that. If the parents can't deal with their son's life choice then f$@# them.
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ArcanumTwilight Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
Saddening.....but great work.
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Razor13 Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
This is sometimes life. We are judged for who we are and who we wish to become. This piece goes along quite well with Perfect by Ellen Hopkins, sequel to her book, Impulse. Impulse starts talking about the push one boy's parents give him to be perfect, and Perfect continues alongside when Impulse is happening and it shows deep emotion in how pressure, not even just from parents, can hurt us.
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silvanoir Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Hobbyist
This would also work as a female-to-male image.

Don't listen to people hating on your pictures with topics of sexuality, they're hating on mine too. Must be haters day.
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Ginger-Bunneh Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
poor girl :< if her parents truly love her, then they will accept her for who she is. if not, then to hell with them! it's her life and her body. not theirs.
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Hauntedsoul19 Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
Sad, but I still love it
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WingingRed Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
Maybe he should put that tape over his mouth and nose, like all homo furries should.
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:iconmorbiusmonster:
MorbiusMonster Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2011
Or we could put it around yours and then rip it off quickly...
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Fiuefey Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
this was simply not needed.
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Starmuttani Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
:iconderpplz:
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:iconwingingred:
WingingRed Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
A little late.
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:iconcour-cour:
Cour-cour Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
Dude, lay off. No one puts their art on this site so people like you can dance along and bash them. You could at least show some common decency.
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Hauntedsoul19 Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
Thank you!
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:iconcour-cour:
Cour-cour Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
Hm? Your welcome sweety, at least some people can show a little respect.
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:iconhauntedsoul19:
Hauntedsoul19 Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
It's sad that some people don't realize what respect is.
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:iconcour-cour:
Cour-cour Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
No, come now. We're dropping this~
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Hauntedsoul19 Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
Mkay, fine by me!
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:iconcour-cour:
Cour-cour Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
Lol. :3
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Hauntedsoul19 Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
Mkay, fine by me
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WingingRed Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
And I also didn't ask for you to attempt to call me out. But you see, it's called free will. When you get over people with other opinions, then you can talk. Until then, go back to the playground and let the big boys talk.
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Cour-cour Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
If this is the case, then I suppose it was perfectly free of will for me to call you out. I'm just curious as to why your rounding on me with such a defense when you were the one who made the original smartass remark. In any case, it still didn't have to be said in the first place. If you didn't like it so much then why did you bother to even place a comment when there was a pretty little "x" just above your window.
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WingingRed Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
So, you don't like free will based on your first comment, but then say your comment was made using free will? Very hypocritical.

And because there's an easier way out means yous should take it? When you don't like something just ignore it? People like you are why the world is so fucked up. I hope you understand the complete stupidity of your comment.
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Cour-cour Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
Listen, if the artist wanted critique they would have asked. At this point I've already stereotypically labelled you as some block-headed ass and am pretty much done with this. Your not worth the trouble it's causing.
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WingingRed Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011
>Implying that the artist has to ask for it to be critiqued. And I love how you've ignored all of my points, and just insulted me. That goes to show the intelligence of you.
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