Piece A goes into slot B. Piece C connects with slot D and bends to meet slot K. These instructions are recognizable to me. My dream is to be an engineer in a space shuttle program, but mostly for NASA. Ever since I was a cub, I've always wanted to fly out in space. I wanted to see the stars without the thick layer of clouds and pollution. I wanted to see Earth floating in space like a well-decorated Christmas ordainment. But what really gets my tail fluffed up is floating in space, working and repairing on machines in zero gravity. That is heaven to me. For years, I've devoted most to all of my time on this planet playing with model shuttles and studying engineering for space travel. I've also set my eyes on building new space shuttles to reach the farthest moons.
However, dreams do have sacrifices. I was so fixed on my studies that I've forgot the world around me. I've lost most to all of my friends do to my fixation on my dream. I've missed their birthdays, their gatherings, road-trips...everything. Its like I completely locked in my own bubble and don't wish to get out until my dream comes alive. I travel a lot too so I'm not in the right spot or time to hang out with them. Now and then, a passing thought of loneliness comes into my head and I feel sad and depressed. Is my dream worth building if I have no friends? I can never seem to answer that one question. All I can really do is focus on my dreams, my studies and my toy shuttles, dreaming of a day where I will be out in space, floating out there without a care in the world.
A commission that sequencednoise on DA wanted me to do. he made it very clear what he wanted in the note he sent me and how strong his passion was to be out in space. A lot of my commissions seem to connect well with strong dreams and no friends. Sometimes, you need friends. They are there to support you when you fall and you support them when they fall. Without friends, you will always feel cold and alone.
story and art © 2009 Alex Cockburn