Jessi and her boyfriend John are very close. They love one another and are always on equal levels with each other’s needs. They are always happy together and never think about leaving each other. They are two peas in a pod, perfect round peas. They love to sleep together, using their large tails as pillows. It was Jessi's idea. She wanted to smell him while she sleeps, dreaming about life with him by her side.

Suddenly, one night, Jessi wakes up in a terrified state. She had a dream, a nightmare. She had this feeling that everything will end between her and John. It felt real to her, and in the back of her mind, she knew that it will soon happen. She became more terrified and dug herself deeper into a panic attack. She reached for her love's tail and clinged to it, trembling as her eyes filled with tears and dread. Her rough actions slowly woke John up, not knowing why she suddenly acted like this.

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This was a picture I did a few months ago and never had the chance to upload it. Its original name was "TailSnugglingWorry", but for the sake of the meaning behind it, I changed the name.

Do you ever feel like something will slowly slip out of your hands without noticing it, or do you worry that you will loose something very precious to you within the blink of an eye? You wish for that moment to be kept with you at all times, never losing it, knowing that it is there to give you comfort. Time changes the world and effect people's lives.

Have you ever had a dream or a vision of something happening between you and your significant other? Have you ever felt that something was going to destroy that relationship, but you dont know who it will start from, who will cause the break up? if you feel like you will be the one to blame, can you see anything to go around that problem and hope for the best?

Everyone is born with a unique insight and "six sense". They know something will happen in the future, but never have a clear view of what and who. When one dreams, it is the subconscious mind showing you images, things you have forgotten a long time about in which are now coming back to haunt you. Or early crushes that you now see clearly in your mind. Some dont take dreams seriously. Others do.

I guess my entire point of this is that you want something to last forever. You enjoy this certain feeling inside of your heart. It brings you joy, hope and the willingness to go forward in life. If suddenly that feeling goes away after a dramatic event, how would you feel afterwards? Lonely? Depressed? Lost? Confused? You wouldn't know what to do or how to feel. Getting that feeling back into it's pure state will take so much hard work and a long time to heal. You wish that something you love will remain with you forever and you are very terrified of that feeling or moment to be washed away by a series of dramatic events.

"Nothing lasts forever." I am always told this, and sadly...it is true.

- Ookami Kemono

Clinging Worry © 2007 Alex Cockburn